January 1, 2017

And just like that, 2016 is done and gone.

The first thing I felt was relief. This year was a testing one. A true testing one. And I thought to myself, why should I feel relieved? I was given a year that many did not get, many did not survive through. And I feel relief that it is over? Why?

The second thing I felt was fear. Fear that I had reached the end of another year and never really lived it, enjoyed it.

What risks I didn’t take, what dreams I didn’t pursue.

Ever since graduating university I feel like this has been my life: Going to work, waiting for the weekend, and paying my bills. A routine I don’t want to live anymore.

“This is life”, as some would say.

But I think you’re wrong.

I know there is more to live for.

Take the moments you have.

I hope in 2017 I struggle, I hope I fall. More times than I count. Why? Because I am going to choose courage over comfort.

I hope I don’t live the same year twice.

I think we are all afraid we are going to live each year the exact same way. We are all afraid that we have worked so hard to get to where we are, and are finding it is not fulfilling our souls. It’s been written in hundreds of news articles, been studied numerous of times. We are a generation that wants more experience, we want more out of life. We don’t care about the materialistic things. We want a life well lived.

There is more. There is always more. Don’t ever stop searching.

One thought on “January 1, 2017

  1. I’m finally taking crazy risks at 83. What can I lose? In about 2 months I’ll fly to Seattle, 3000 miles away to self-publish a book about the father I never learned about until I was 70. I’ve made some people mad, will spend too much on the launch party —we’ll have a Dixieland band, my kids think I’m nuts, I could end up in the poorhouse or drop dead any day now. But it’s fun and I wish I’d taken more chances when I was younger. I had my share of depressions back then. Thanks for your interest Love Ivana!


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