Hello 2019

Oh 2018, what a year it has been. 2018 was the year of learning and letting go. I am really amazed at how much I learn about myself each passing year, honestly. I will be turning 30 this year and I keep thinking, this is it. There really can’t be more. But there is always […]

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The Purpose of Life

“On the street I saw a small girl cold and shivering in a thin dress, with little hope of a decent meal. I became angry and said to God, “Why did you permit this? Why don’t you do something about it”. For a while God said nothing. That night he replied quite suddenly, “I certainly […]

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Chapter 29

This journey has been a long one. I have enjoyed so many moments along the way, But I have also lost count of the number of times I’ve wanted to go back. I am writing these words a week before my 29th birthday and with so much to say on this past year, I will […]

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When Life Tests You…

[Written April 2016] Yesterday was a really bad day. I had no energy and not even an ounce of strength left in me. When I want to explain to people what this disease feels like I tell them… Let’s say you are going for a 7km run. The beginning is all great and you feel […]

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Memories & Dreams

Everything I used to know, is now everything I no longer understand. You live and survive. And you dream of everything you have never had. You build memories your entire life. Every single moment, is a memory. Some memories come and go, without another thought. Some memories live with you forever. And some, can never […]

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Be real, not perfect

I can’t remember how many times you looked me in the eyes and asked me if I was okay. How many times I smiled back at you and responded, ‘Yes’. On the outside, I looked fine. But on the inside, the pain was burning me alive. And I wondered, if you could tell. I was […]

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To Persevere

How I have adopted is something that continues to be a work in progress. There is no formula or answer. How do you go from being afraid to persevering? My friend, I’ll tell you… When I was first diagnosed I was afraid to talk about it, afraid to communicate it to anyone. I didn’t want […]

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I wish that it could be different…

I spent a lifetime building a wall around myself. I didn’t want to be found, I didn’t want to be heard. I wanted to go through this life unnoticed. I didn’t want you to hear everything I was feeling, I didn’t want you to see everything I was trying to shelter you from. But you […]

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Feeling Lost

I went for a walk this morning, much too early for my liking. Thinking too much of too many things. Wishing someone could show me the way. Wishing someone could show me who I am. Who I need to be, what I need to do… It’s such a great purpose to pursue. A purpose much […]

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What We Leave Behind

There are so many feelings but no words. I don’t want to explain it. I want to run away from it and never have to feel this again. My life is always screaming at me. It’s so loud that sometimes I can’t hear anything else. There is always something I need to understand. Something I […]

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