What We Leave Behind

There are so many feelings but no words. I don’t want to explain it. I want to run away from it and never have to feel this again. My life is always screaming at me. It’s so loud that sometimes I can’t hear anything else. There is always something I need to understand. Something I […]

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Another Year Older…

My birthday is in August and every year around that time I try and find a few moments to reflect on the year and what I have taken from it. The days that have passed me by seem to have all merged together and become all the same. However, when I look back – everything […]

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My Promise To You…

There are many promises I have made throughout my life. Many, I could not keep. Not by choice. Some I have broke so hard that I wasn’t sure if I would ever heal from the impact. The hardest promises to let go of are the ones I had for myself. The promise of a new […]

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Desperation

It was on this cold Sunday morning that I was deep in thought about my life and my purpose. I thought about everything that got me to this exact spot. Let me start from the beginning… When I was applying to universities, I wasn’t exactly sure what I wanted to do with the rest of […]

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The First Time I got Stitches…

Was today. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve fallen since being diagnosed with a muscle disorder. Too many times to count. Most of the times I can walk away with a little bruise here or there. Sometimes I have to go to the emergency because I tore a ligament or something. Today, I […]

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January 1, 2017

And just like that, 2016 is done and gone. The first thing I felt was relief. This year was a testing one. A true testing one. And I thought to myself, why should I feel relieved? I was given a year that many did not get, many did not survive through. And I feel relief […]

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Settle…

It is the oldest story I know. One day you are simply a child, exploring and finding things that interest you. Then without any kind of notice, today turns into yesterday. And this becomes your life. It is one of the saddest stories and I hate telling it. I hate it. Settling. The word makes […]

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Not all those who wander are lost

I have always been a “wanderer”; thinking of what could have been and what may be. What would have happened if I had not come to Canada? What kinds of friends would I have? Would my character still be the same? What if I went to a different school or moved to a different city? […]

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A Letter

I wanted to write you a letter; I hope you don’t mind. There is just so much on my mind and so much I want to tell you. Before the hours turn into days and the days turn into months, and the months turn into years. I am standing alone looking out in the distance, […]

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Going Back in Time…

As I write this, the world around me is completely quiet. I am only left with the silent beats of my own heart. I want to just go to bed and sleep all my thoughts off but my heart won’t allow me. It’s speaking to me so loudly tonight. I am the only one who […]

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