When Life Tests You…

[Written April 2016] Yesterday was a really bad day. I had no energy and not even an ounce of strength left in me. When I want to explain to people what this disease feels like I tell them… Let’s say you are going for a 7km run. The beginning is all great and you feel […]

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Memories & Dreams

Everything I used to know, is now everything I no longer understand. You live and survive. And you dream of everything you have never had. You build memories your entire life. Every single moment, is a memory. Some memories come and go, without another thought. Some memories live with you forever. And some, can never […]

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Be real, not perfect

I can’t remember how many times you looked me in the eyes and asked me if I was okay. How many times I smiled back at you and responded, ‘Yes’. On the outside, I looked fine. But on the inside, the pain was burning me alive. And I wondered, if you could tell. I was […]

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To Persevere

How I have adopted is something that continues to be a work in progress. There is no formula or answer. How do you go from being afraid to persevering? My friend, I’ll tell you… When I was first diagnosed I was afraid to talk about it, afraid to communicate it to anyone. I didn’t want […]

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Feeling Lost

I went for a walk this morning, much too early for my liking. Thinking too much of too many things. Wishing someone could show me the way. Wishing someone could show me who I am. Who I need to be, what I need to do… It’s such a great purpose to pursue. A purpose much […]

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What We Leave Behind

There are so many feelings but no words. I don’t want to explain it. I want to run away from it and never have to feel this again. My life is always screaming at me. It’s so loud that sometimes I can’t hear anything else. There is always something I need to understand. Something I […]

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My Promise To You…

There are many promises I have made throughout my life. Many, I could not keep. Not by choice. Some I have broke so hard that I wasn’t sure if I would ever heal from the impact. The hardest promises to let go of are the ones I had for myself. The promise of a new […]

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Desperation

It was on this cold Sunday morning that I was deep in thought about my life and my purpose. I thought about everything that got me to this exact spot. Let me start from the beginning… When I was applying to universities, I wasn’t exactly sure what I wanted to do with the rest of […]

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The First Time I got Stitches…

Was today. I can’t tell you how many times I’ve fallen since being diagnosed with a muscle disorder. Too many times to count. Most of the times I can walk away with a little bruise here or there. Sometimes I have to go to the emergency because I tore a ligament or something. Today, I […]

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To Love Again…

Everything was done, The moment our eyes met. Those eyes of yours, Swallowed me entirely. You knew, I saw it in the way you looked at me. I didn’t know why I was so drawn to you, Maybe it was because I didn’t know someone like you existed, I didn’t know someone like you could […]

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